Life has been so busy and hectic. And yet despite that, God is still so amazing.
I really feel this is a big leap year for me in terms of my walk with God. I'm getting so much revelation and refreshment and Word and wisdom, it's just.... wow. Like some days I think to myself, "Why me God? Why choose me?"
And honestly God sometimes just says, "Because you're you. That's why."
Law school has been insane. And while I'm still getting the hang of getting to know people, talking to class and contributing to the discussion, I feel so blessed - Like for example, I found out that some of the other syndicate groups for the group assignments have major drama. My group was so good! Everyone contributed, everyone wanted to do well, no drama or issues with someone not doing work or changing everything without consulting everyone. And our work is looking good!
The week I fell sick, my lecturers fell behind in the content, so I didn't have as much work to catch up with as I had thought. And, the week that i felt so drained and tired, I had lesser readings to do. Blessed indeed! God really sees each step of your way :)
planetUNI dance has started rehearsals to prepare for camp. I was just really thankful for my pastor pushing for us to have a mini-discipleship with his wife before we start rehearsals. I feel like in the midst of a lot of things just happening, logistics and getting things rolling are what has been on my mind. Bringing glory to God is there, sure, but it's at the back of everything. And really, just having that spiritual refresher gave me such revelation - That should be the front of it all. Bringing Kingdom to this earth. I've really seen myself improve in the gift that God has given me. And I just want to burst out and dance so much for Him.
I feel like there's so much opportunity to bring Kingdom. And really this year I've learnt that when you bring Kingdom mindset into everything, it makes a huge difference to your life. Your mindset. Your thoughts. Your perspective. Your emotions (and control of). Your actions. Your words.
For we are Kingdom made. Born for the time that we're in. To bring glory to His name.
Saturday, April 28, 2012 9:55 AM
Reboot again! And I reckon this time it's for real :)
Because a lot of things have happened and I just have to share it!
For starters, I've filmed a short version of Lift Me Up! I'm really excited about that. And there's a testimony behind finishing it that I'll share in the next update.
Second thing, law school, slowly getting there but surely. And something that I was feeling a bit 'meh' about, God heard me :)
Next thing coming up, planetUNI runs church on 13 May 6pm! Be there!
Till, the next update!
Wednesday, January 04, 2012 1:37 PM
The search for wisdom.
This was my devotional today:
Moral Benefits of Wisdom
1 My son, if you accept my words and store up my commands within you, 2 turning your ear to wisdom and applying your heart to understanding— 3 indeed, if you call out for insight and cry aloud for understanding, 4 and if you look for it as for silver and search for it as for hidden treasure, 5 then you will understand the fear of the LORD and find the knowledge of God. 6 For the LORD gives wisdom; from his mouth come knowledge and understanding. 7 He holds success in store for the upright, he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless, 8 for he guards the course of the just and protects the way of his faithful ones.
9 Then you will understand what is right and just and fair—every good path.
- Proverbs 2:1-9
I reckon especially at this point in my life, a search for wisdom is key. When we're young, we're so reckless, wild, curious, experimental and if we're not the ones who influence, we're easily influenced. I had a pretty good headstart when I was younger; I stayed away from the things that weren't going to do me any good.
But as I've matured and grown over the years, I realize that wisdom is not only differentiating what is 'right' and 'wrong', but it's also for understanding the finer lines of emotions and situations. My heart has been pressed down, rolled over, shaken and shaken again as God has been revealing things to me that still need to be cleared out or things that I've had a wrong perspective on all this time.
Wisdom is pure gold. When you come out of a situation and you know you did what you had to do - And I'm not talking about going with instinct or intuition, I mean actually thinking through and concluding that what needs to be done is the right way (though not necessarily the easiest way) - it's a level of peace, not satisfaction. If you only get satisfaction, be wary of selfishness and pride. Nobody is 'right' in this world; only God is.
My Godpa Peter gave me a particular devotional for my Christmas present this year, and said to me it's time to go deeper with God. All the surface things are going well, so now time to dig into the ground.
Monday, January 02, 2012 4:15 PM
A new year, a great start :)
"1 See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him. 2 Dear friends, now we are children of God, and what we will be has not yet been made known. But we know that when Christ appears,[a] we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is. 3 All who have this hope in him purify themselves, just as he is pure." - 1 John 1:3
I haven't abandoned this blog! Just a lot of things happening so haven't been updating. For one I've graduated! Bachelor of Commerce booyahh!
I am privileged to know such beautiful people :)
My family is the best <3
The past few months have been just a mad frenzy. I feel like I do more things and get less sleep during holidays than I do during the normal semester. 2011 was the year of becoming, and God was really working on the word 'becoming'. Come last quarter of 2011 and God was still clearing things out of the closet for me. I am very thankful for that. It has not been easy, and it has hurt a lot, but I feel a lot stronger from it. Like I have a better perspective of certain things.
Because God will never let you just sit in your current state when you could be all that He has made you to be. The BEST you.
I'm super excited for this new year! It's a huge transition year for many people I know, myself included.
For one, starting afresh in God's leadership role for me as an urbanlife leader. After having a chat with one of my senior leaders, I realize that I had been running around worrying about the 'human' details of things. So this break is time for me to step back, let God back into the centre of it all and lead as He pleases.
Secondly, my 1st year in The University of Melbourne Juris Doctor programme. I am so scared yet excited at the same time. People say that I'll do well in law, and I am confident that I will too. I'm aware of how tough it'll be, and I'm dreading the amount of readings I'll have to do. But yay! I finally made it to law! Praise God :) It'll be an interesting 3 years.
My dance. Not only with university ministry, but with other dream projects God has been giving to me. I have my own project that is way overdue; I had hoped to finish it by end of 2011 but I ran out of time. I'm still going to finish it; As God reminded me the day I panicked about not being to complete it, the whole point is not to put it up for show, there's a heartbeat message behind it that I want to share. It will be up soon, I promise. And more to come after :) Also, a friend of mine asked me to support her with her God dream; I am super excited about that! I cannot wait to see the work God does in her life and how it is going to touch others :D
Last night Pammie and I organised a primary school gathering. Sad to say because we don't have everyone's facebooks or phone numbers, we only invited a small group. 13 altogether. Still pretty good! Haha! We ate, played kinect games and talked heaps about stuff we did in primary school, what we have been up to, and what is next. It was so nice to see them, especially the few who I haven't seen in the past few years. Everyone looks the same, everything still feels the same. :)) The one thing that became super clear to us having met last night was that we are all turning 21 this year. Scary. What a birthday. We're 9 years down since graduating from primary school.
Just. Wow. How far each of us have come.
And of course, come 2013 will be our 10th year reunion. Pammie and I plan to make it bigger and hopefully more people will be able to turn up!
One month of rest, reflection, prayer and preparation for my year ahead. Bring it on God! :D
Sunday, October 16, 2011 4:52 PM
Rainmaker, God dreamer ♥
[I have this really long post about my amazing 1st half of my midsem break that I wanna post up but I have yet to finish typing it. Oops]
Ps Sergio spoke at church today and man was he on fire! It was a message that many may not get, but it really struck a chord with me. He spoke about how God is looking for people with the hearts to be a rainmaker for him - Someone who stirs it up, burns the fire of God and stimulates growth in and out of the church.
Recently, I've been doing a lot of God dreaming. I've acted on the dream, and I can really see it happening. It's exciting and scary at the same time. There's been heaps of obstacles in the way, and yet in the midst of those troubles, I can still see the bigger picture. God keeps giving me downloads. I love it.
And me activating and acting on my dream has led others to activate/act on theirs. I'm amazed and freaked-out-in-a-good-way by the supernatural-ness of it all. How God's timing is perfect in all this.
Then one of my dreaming buddies told me yesterday how hers started with mine; with me asking her to partner our dreams together. And wow. Just wow, the result has been nothing short of so darn exciting cool.
I think to myself maybe that's my rainmaker duty - A dreamer who kickstarts other dreamers. I like that idea. So God, if that'd be your will, let me do my duty well.
So watch this space. Hopefully I can get what I want up by the end of this year. :)
I love the rawness of this piece. The real emotions that are carried in each step.