Stupid CD drive. It's bias or something - I tried to play my 'Play' CD but it refused to read the CD properly and got me all frustrated on a dear friday night. Luckily I have a relaxation CD, which is the 'What A Girl Wants'. I just love the song selection there.
You know, I always tell Tazia that lonely is good. Lonely allows one to stone and just think through events. And that's partially the reason why I like to be alone sometimes. I got this thing about thinking and reflections. My mum told me that it was good that I was using poetry to express my feelings at times. I'm not sure what she meant by that, since that is still bottling it up as I never showed my mum my poems till recently. Haiz. I just love thinking about things - Friends, Family, Relationships, Love, Jesus, Music, Books, Comics, Stories, Dance, CCA - You could think about anything with just a bed, air-conditioning or fan, and maybe a bottle of 7-up and a cup just in case.
I'm suddenly pondering about this - I've just realised I don't have any one I can really talk to. I mean, I know that I have my dear 6 best friends, and my dear cousin. But I don't know... to me, I just don't feel like they are the ones I should talk to. Maybe it's cause I haven't seen my best friends for a while, but I'm not sure of the insecurity to my cousin. It's pretty weird. You know, last time my chat buddy was Arnold. Strange as it is, him being a guy, I could talk to him about almost anything, even my crushes because I trusted him and he trusted me. Somewhere halfway through P6, we started to... well, stop talking. And then it just ended. Now I don't talk to him at all except to call him on his birthday. He was a great friend. I guessin that he still is, but I haven't seen him or had a long chat with him for a long time.
I want to know someone like that. I wonder who that someone is...