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but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

-Isaiah 40:31

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Sunday, June 24, 2007 10:13 AM

I don't get it. I just don't get it.

Why does she think that I'm (1)studying too hard, (2)eating too little, and (3)sleeping too little?

I kind of thought she'd be happy at this. I mean, how many parents actually have to face the extreme of their child studying a lot willingly, instead of being a lazy ass and procrastinating and failing and not giving a care in the world about it? I study because I want to, so I wish sometimes that people would stop telling me to stop studying. Sure, once in a while, as a joke between friends and family is ok, but UGH. I am an overly-ambitious girl who just happens to not mind sticking my head in books and becoming a hermit for the time of being as a result of studies. And it is not taking a toll on my health. Sheesh.

Let's take a look at another thing. I AM NOT UNDERWEIGHT. Yes, I lost weight. So what? You can check the MOH scale, school PE scale, BMI scale, whatever stupid scale in the world - I am not underweight. I used to be slightly overweight. A freakin 110%. Now I am 100%, so what's wrong with that? I don't want to lose any more weight than I have lost, but I just as well DO NOT want to gain any more weight. I didn't go through any drastic weight loss. I am not anorexic. I still eat well and I can still eat a lot. I simply prevent myself from overeating and avoid the stuff that can really kill people. Why is it that many people I know, including some of my cousins, can stand in front of people with their bodies, much thinner than mine, and there's no comment from anyone?? Even after I lost the weight, I am NO WHERE NEAR to that body line/shape/structure/whatever. I don't want to be like that. I just want to be a good weight where I don't have a freakin bulge sticking out, or a double chin, or a really round face. What's so wrong with that, huh?

And MY GOSH. Let's go look at all my cousins and friends who turn in on a school night at 0100 hours in the morning, while I obediently and willingly hit the sack at 2130 hours, or at the latest 2200 hours EVERY NIGHT. Ok so maybe I've been waking up early for a few weeks to study back during mid year revision, but I SLEPT EARLY TO MAKE UP FOR IT.

When I get sick, oh my goodness, it's the end of the world!

I know that maybe she does it because she loves me and cares for me and does what she thinks it's best for me. But why can't I be right about my own body and mind here?

I do not want to be stressed. Just. Just...