And when I saw how we were being split, I came to realise that the very few people who I have been leaning on all this while are on the other side of the line drawn. I felt sad. Who wouldn't? I was probably the only person who cried yesterday.
I was the smiley face the whole night; I thought to myself that it was going to happen sooner or later, and that I was not going to cry.
I couldn't help it. The tears just started flowing. They were a mix of tears of joy, for the increase in the urban life population, and tears of sadness, for the separation. I felt like a little kid crying to her big sisters (which more or less was the actual situation there. HA!)
Then when I think about it, and after talking to God about it, I realised that there is a reason for this split. All these big sisters of mine have done such an awesome job with me and my spiritual growth, it's time for me to carry on what they have been doing and reach out to more young girls... and boys.... my age and younger.
Step out of your comfort zone.
God is beginning to test me and create the situation that would require me to challenge myself and bring out whatever talents in me to carry out his will. I guess, in that sense, I will say Thanks God for believing in me and making me realise my potential and capabilities.
Shiyou obviously can read me very well and came to talk to me, gave me words of encouragement, words of wisdom, a heart-to-heart, small pep talk, a short prayer and a big hug. Sharon had to cradle me and talk to me all the same as well. And Steph... made me laugh xD. Scott had to give me two bear hugs.
When I caught up with shiyou on wednesday, she asked me a question that got me thinking for a bit, and well stunned me a bit because I never actually considered the thought. She asked, "Have you ever thought of you leading an urban life?"
Could I, Daddy God? Am I Capable of doing so?
And to those "big sisters of mine" who have been there for me whenever I needed someone to talk to, or even caught up with me over the house and listened to me rant on and on...
I love Shiyou. I love Debs. I love Sharon. I love Steph. I love Diane. I love Grace...
You know what? I love UL5. There's no other way to say it. I will miss our wednesday nights. Everyone is awesome in their own way, from those listed above, as well as Carmen, Rosemary, Jane, Belinda, Jane, Sarah, Wei Ying, Gwen, Joanna, Yeni, Lynn, Lewis, Tung, Lionel, WeiXiong, Tim, Collin, Jeremy, Jason, Jonathan...
...And most of all, Scott. For taking us under his wing and seeing our spiritual growth. I will miss him when that time comes. I shall haunt him till then, and maybe haunt him even after then ^.^
I can't wait to be a part of WeiYing's new urban life; She's such an awesome woman of God and I know that she will do well not only as an urban life leader, but as a big sister and a servant of God. Go Wei Ying!