Sometimes I read blogs, or even little messages at the end of people's msn names, and most of the time you see - and don't deny this - emotive words, sometimes even depressing, of really wretched suppressed feelings that just need an outlet to burst out.
And when I reflect, I realise how emo I used to be at some point. How emo I can be, when I didn't use to rely on my daddy God.
I used to ask what is it like to feel loved. Not by family. Not by friends. That kind of love. Now I know, because I am loved by the awesome Father, whose love is unfailing and never ceases. His 'love never fails' (1 Corinthians 13:8)
Then I realised something, a difference between me now and then - I don't have anything emo inside me that I hide from the world, let alone any emo feelings at all. All my worries and troubles and desperations, I surrender it to God now. I don't keep it in me. I used to find life boring; now living the life in the spirit makes every day interesting. The only problem I have now is sucuumbing to the pressure of work in the natural human world; but then again, why should I sucuum to the natural world that has sinned, when I can see things through the eyes of the supernatural life where things, even the stresses, seem to be of good and value. ^.^
Because I know that he has awesome plans for me =). I know that I have a 'solid rock' to lean onto whenever I feel vulnerable. God is great; God is good. Thank you Lord.