I only just realised about five minutes ago that I haven't reflected on the year 2008. So here we go...
In the year 2008,
I drew closer to God I told God that I'm not letting Him go I realised how much I miss my family I went to Melbourne I studied overseas I made many new friends and I love them loads I realised how much my best friends mean to me and how much I really love them and miss them while I'm away I realised that it is difficult to work hard in this world without God by your side I served on the PlanetUni Dance Ministry I came to understand what it means to be in the ministry I learnt that talent is not everything, it's who you're serving I saw God show me things in different places and in different people I felt that my dancing has improved I am not afraid to venture out to other dances I finally picked up a bit of make-up I learnt the importance of being transparent I have matured; grown a lot spiritually and emotionally. I stayed single. Thank the Lord. I learnt to really value my leaders I have learnt to be more compassionate I have grown closer to my sister I know that God is the same anytime, anywhere I have learnt to turn to Him in everything I want to know Him
Today, weiying asked me if I was ok. Honestly, it never occured to me that there may be something wrong with me. Then I realised how maybe there is something up. Something disturbing me. Then I realised that recently (with the unfortunate monthly surge of hormones) I've been stressing myself out for no reason; and that has made me force myself to seek God. However when I do feel His presence, I let it go. Then I force myself to seek Him again.
Then God put something in my mind, "Do you love Me and believe in Me so much that you just know I'll be there when you seek Me?"
I was reading John Bevere's book 'Drawing Near' on my way home after KBox today, the chapter titled 'What hinders true intimacy?' - He pointed out that sometimes we try to create God in our heads; like the people of Israel that turned their backs on God. Then I suddenly thought, maybe that's was what I've been trying to do.
No way. My God is above me. I know He will speak to me in His own time, and He will tell me what He wants me to hear, not what I want Him to say.
Thanks Daddy God for that revealation =)
And weiying, if you read this, we'll talk more when we catch up ok? I think I do have some things I wanna just rant on.