Yesterday, there was huge tension and fighting, misunderstandings and anger. And at the end of the night, I was too scared to even pick up my quiet time. With all that anger and emotion inside me, I was a bit ashamed to refer to the Gospel.
Then God told me to open up the book, and I finally managed to will myself to.
"But if you will not listen, my soul will weep in secret because of your pride..." -Jeremiah 13:17
God has interesting ways of telling things. That is exactly what was my quiet time for last night, after all that happened during the day.
And I knew that part of the reason why I was fighting was my pride - I didn't want to back down and be the weaker one. I was so certain of my own reasons that I would win this one and that I would not cave.
Pride. What horrible things it can do to a person when used the wrong way.
And I cried. God was urging me to forgive and make up. I know it's wrong to fit what God says into our perimeters, but I needed one night to just cry and sleep it off. Thank you Father for letting me.
So this morning, when I woke up, I said two very important statements:
"I love you,"
And everything was bliss again. I thank the Lord for pointing it out and giving me the courage to make the first step to making things right again.
This is what my morning devotionals said:
"If you are willing and obedient, you shall eat the good of the land," - Isaiah 1:19
No kidding. haHAHA.
The title of this quiet time was 'Receive God's gifts'. This was definitely a great gift to start the day. =D
And well, in other news, Sharon cooked dinner for us last night! Yummy steak and bread pudding for dessert. Heeeeee.
Oh oh oh and I manage to get a bigger room in college square. =)