Exclusivity is a sad and scary thing. Yet sometimes it's inevitable.
It was the one thing that led to me to leave youth when I was younger. And I am so thankful to God for getting back and active in the life of the church and in my ministry.
And I realise how much more sensitive I've become to things. I hang out with a group and I always notice that one person who seems to be away or out of it. Sometimes I do something sometimes I do not. Whether that person actually feels out of it or not, i'm just afraid they feel excluded.
I also realise how difficult it is to not be exclusive, and how pettish it may seem to respond to what one may perceive as being excluded.
But I wonder how others think. Those that feel out of it, welcome at times but not always. Again, sometimes it is difficult to fit more people, or because of the privacy of the talk there is a need to limit the circle.
If you know what I mean.
I want God to show me how to not be exclusive. Because I know that we are supposed to help His lost ones back home. But if they feel out of it, how much more difficult it will be to bring them home.
I want God to use me to talk to the most random people. I feel even now that to some extent, I myself can be a bit exclusive sometimes. I don't want that. I want to be able to communicate and reach a level of friendship with people that I just meet very easily.
Holy Spirit, please show me how.
On a brighter note, today is the last day of the semester! Haha. But I have been cooped up in Frank Tate the whole day doing work. You know me, Nerdy ^^