So last night was probably one of the biggest trials I've had.
And at the same time it was also a night where I got to do a check of myself. And I realized how much I have changed, and how much I've learnt to just control and not jump faster than what God would want me to do.
I'm learning to work in a WWJD way. What Would Jesus Do.
Rifts and bumps with people you love are there to test your friendship. Are you going to just let it go, or are you going to prevail and rise above it?
So maybe some friendships are not meant to last, maybe they barely take off. I know the friendships I have are meant to last. I believe so. And I believe that God wants to birth something out of our friendship.
When the devil tried to taunt me of all the things he/she did wrong, I stopped and said, "Shut up". I was angry, yes. I was not sure whether to tell him/her; my dear leader said I should, but to calm myself down and pray for the right words. In the end, he/she came to me first and took full responsibility for what had happened. I sat and listened to what exactly happened on his/her side to get some understanding of his/her position. Then I told him/her in all honesty what was running through my mind, what I was feeling. At the end of the call, there was hugs-through-the-phone, tears, forgiveness and an even stronger friendship.
And I think that's what true God friendships are.
When you do something wrong, and you have the guts to not only apologize but to take full responsibility for it.
When you learn to forgive and still love them, despite how angry they made you.
When you can be totally honest with them, the emotions, the thoughts, the doubts, the fears, the worries, the truths.
When you want your friendship to not be affected by these trials, to not let the enemy have your friendship; he doesn't have the right to it in the first place. Because (a) you love the other person too much, and (b) you know God has plans for your friendship.
So yeah. Just letting you know that I love ya heaps yeh. I thank God for you. =)