This may be a selfish point-of-view, but it felt as if the first two services at church last Sunday were directed to me. And God worked in the first service, and then allowed me to feel the result of Him working in me during the second. I sang so loud, smiled so wide, and felt such a great joy today. It was incredible.
And I feel like I've hit some sort of breakthrough.
Combined with the amazing revelations at Beautiful Woman, I'm just wowed at what God is doing inside of me this semester. There are these things in my life that have escalated to a point of chaotic frustration, and I've been venting it by myself. But on Sunday, Ps Neil spoke about the power and authority we have when we agree in God's will. I admitted to one of the prayer leaders that 1st service, and she prayed and agreed with me. I felt the breakthrough.
In the 2nd service, I declared it done in heaven. God said, "It's done." It may take a while to actually happen in the real world, but God has sealed it with His holy covering. It is done.
And with that, God prepared me to be ready to share my heart through my talent. The idea and dream that I had from a while back that I've been shelving for a while.
I shan't be ashamed to admit this - The idea arose through trials; the dream, however, came when I felt His love and hope.
On monday, while waiting to meet a friend, I listened to the track over and over again. On tuesday, I finally got myself to a studio and begin materializing what has been on my heart for so long. The funny thing was that on monday, as I kept listening to the track, I saw an expansion of the original idea that I had; way bigger than what I had dreamed. As I choreographed with the help of my wonderful friend, big sister-in-Christ, and dancer Ness, I felt even more excited.
Just today I felt God showed me something more. A concept; a scene of a video. I have never thought that far before. It's as if, the more I do what God has given me to do, the more He shows me of what is next to come... if that makes sense.
I want to tell a story. I want to share the joy, happiness, pain, and sadness that I feel, the same emotions that everyone else feels. I want to inspire and lift hearts. I want to convey what many others can't get out.
I like what my dance friend Brodie said in rehearsal. That with dance, there has to be a reason for the steps. You don't just do the steps, you dance with a purpose, carrying either a message, a story, or an emotion with it and convey it. Otherwise it's just steps.
I think that's why I love Shaun Evaristo's dance philosophy (for the lack of a better word) - Movement is a lifestyle. Because movement is sometimes the best way to share our lives and touch the lives of others.
Like Choreo Cookies' Ordinary People. It combines the story of many in one, and they bring in this reality to it.
Hopefully, in a few weeks, the first end product of this God dream will be done. I can't wait.
"And David danced before the LORD with all his might..." - 2 Samuel 6:14